Pathetic

I honestly find it pathetic that I haven't had my first kiss yet, not even a peck. I don't really talk to any guys on a regular basis so I see why it hasn't happened yet but still: pathetic. I want to get my first kiss before Senior year starts but I can't even imagine who it would be with. My life is honestly pathetic, am I that bad to were nobody will talk to me and possible be my first kiss? So sad. I think I'm going to start talking to a couple of guys and just see how talking with them goes. And if all else fails..I guess I'll ask my friends for help. Mind that I am not the type to talk about my feelings with other people or showing feelings thus is why I am on here writing what I think/feel. Man I am so pathetic.